It's been a minute since I posted. I choose to stop because I thought it was doing more harm than good. I talked a big game about being a better person for my girls, and I made the next best choice.
To be silent.
After some time to heal and grow, I have a different perspective and I have my voice back.
I will not allow others in influence my heart. I rediscovered my goal to be grace filled and remembered I was created to love. I cannot control how others act or interpret my posts. I am only responsible for my own actions and intentions, and if I know my intentions are pure and my message is true, then I will share with confidence.
Our girls have blossomed so much in the last few months. They are so thankful to be back at Bosqueville. RAPS was great, for a season. But Bosqueville is their home and watching their zest for life and thirst for knowledge return, bringing the light back to their eyes has been an honor to witness.
I apologize for not sharing things like this with you through the years.
My reasons for sharing or not sharing have changed over the years, intentions or varying perspectives were never taken into consideration. but in the end, I did not want to cause any more turmoil.
Until our daughter talked to me and asked me why she was suddenly back in the middle.
She doesn't want to bear this burden. And she shouldn't. It is not her cross to bear.
So I will do what I can on my part. I will share when my heart feels led and I will keep communicating with you, not because I want your attention...but because my daughter needs me to.
This is not exclusive to one area of life....
We make the best choice we can, in each moment. But sometimes those choices change through time and what was the right choice yesterday is not the right choice for today. there is more I would share...but each of our lives is our own and until we each step into our present life and begin living...we are only adding to the chaos. We cannot blame yesterday for today's heartache. We can only use it to fuel our desire to live and love better.
I do not know what tomorrow will bring, But I have every confidence that today has prepared me to face tomorrow with love in my heart, and that is all I need to know.
