question/rant

How many of you have days here and there where your work overwhelms you? Days when you don't like your job or the people you work with? Honestly, who is immune to these days? I'm not saying everyday, but every couple of months, do you have a day where it all just goes wrong?

As parent, how many of you have perfect children who never disobey or smart off. Do you enjoy every single moment of every day with your child, changing diapers and cleaning up messes, diffusing tantrums, stopping fights and potty training, crying and such. Do you have days where you fall into bed exhausted and sad?

Imagine trying to love and be patient with other peoples kids, while parenting your own kids and trying to get some college reading in. Balancing what other kids are used to and get away with in their own homes versus what is expected in my house... Is it really so inconceivable that I might stressed!?

I'm happy and on bad days I manage because its what I do, and I wouldn't have it any other way. I truly love my job. I just wish people would understand that as much as I love my children, and theirs...I'm allowed to have days where I'm annoyed, perhaps grumpy. I might even get a little short with said child when they test me. Does that automatically mean I'm abusive or incapable of doing a great job with kids? I firmly believe I have a higher tolerance for children than most people and this is the job I was created to do. However, children are not perfect and I am not tolerant of annoying attitudes or blatant disrespect/disobedience. I will respect them and they will respect me! I'm not perfect, Never claimed to be. I love these child as my own, I nurture, instruct and care for them. I will not put up with every ounce of bologna a child dishes out.

I charge extra for that! :-)

long time coming...

Verbal vomit overload, words swirling in my mind and I need to purge my thoughts, please forgive me.


Trying to make more time for God, time to sit still and listen, but its hard with kids constantly running around! I'm trying to get this school thing done, trying to be a good Mom, friend, girl friend...and I'm beginning to feel utterly overwhelmed! Work is too constant. I need to take a step back. I need to set some limits. I need to schedule better, So much I need to do and I can't figure out where to start! I want to cry! Trying isn't accomplishing anything, I know better than to try. I need to purpose in my heart and set goals I can achieve...

My kids are wonderful...wonderfully horrid little creatures who test me and today I can't do it. Today I am tired and completely overwhelmed! I have mid terms and kids and I just can't...but what choice do I have? I cannot afford to fail again.