Our life as of late

a few quotes from my girl...

Amelia was trying to wake me up and I told her my alarm hasn't gone off yet, so she proceeds to push the sleep button and say "oh, now your alarm is going off, get up mom!" I tell her nice try...that doesn't count. She says "Oh, that doesn't count, okay" and went back to bed.

A few minutes later, after an attempt to wake her sister and a denied request for chocolate milk, I hear her tell Abigail "dude, don't talk to me like that!"

We stop to get food and she climbs in the drivers seat and says, "bye, I'm driving to see my dad"

I catch her with her face squished up to the mirror and ask what she is doing and she replies "I'm pickin my face."

And finally, my personal favorite, I tell her I love her more than the leaves on the tree and she says "I love you more than stickers in the yard". Sweet love from my stinky snot!!! :-)


Abigail is going thru a *fun* stage! Talk about major drama, everything is a matter of life and death and if you are going to ask for help around the house it better be worth the battle! She did not have terrible twos or threes, but man, her sevens are going to make up for it!!! The other day I had the audacity to ask her to clear out the front closet and put all the shoes in the shoe holder. I came back a few minutes later to find her laying on the floor sobbing! I asked her what was wrong and her reply was "look at all the shoes that don't fit us anymore. Those were my favorite blue boots and I'll never have a pair like them again". It was like the sky had fallen. I can't wait for preteen years!

We are doing really well. Life has been challenging to say the least and the education I am getting is not one I ever desired. I am gaining a strong appreciation for today and fresh perspective. I still have personal desires and my hope is stronger than ever. I am also learning to accept what comes as it comes. If it makes me cry, I cry. If it makes me smile, I smile. I am scared and excited, enjoying life in a way I can honestly say I never have before. This in the now stuff is harder than I expected, but the moments I am able to fully immerse myself make it worthwhile.

It is difficult to say I am grateful for this moment in life, because I am still lonely. I am grateful that this moment is not forever. It is only temporary. I need to focus on the girls and while I do not enjoy the idea of withdrawing from my life, giving up on my dreams or shifting my focus; I chose to be thankful for the freedom to do so. I am going to focus on finding balance as a family while instilling character in my girl's hearts. Not a simple task, but I know it is where my energy needs to be.

One of the routines I hope to establish is seemingly simple, Somewhere in the divorce and my failed attempt at dating we lost our bedtime routine. So this week my goal is to dedicate 15 minutes to the girls, time to read a book, or hear about the best part of their day and pray with them.

I'll be back next week to share how it goes :-)