I have to begin by saying...UGH! If you couldn't tell that was a gut-wrenching, wish I could vomit "UGHHH!!!".
There is too much. Too much going on and nothing getting done.
Shoulda coulda woulda...nonsense!
I don't have any idea what music or what colors the Mothers should wear or any of that jazz. Can someone please tell me. But don't be formal and stiff about it, this wedding needs to be (dys)FUN(ctional) so it fits me!!!
Ok, school is good, I got B's in both classes. Comp and Lit is next(Heaven help me!)
Work is breaking my heart.
I am scared, so very scared. I don't want to be married if it was like it was before. I agreed to marry Ryan KNOWING, it will be different. But still...I'm scared. I'm scared of not working, of losing the little control I worked so hard to get over my life...of disappointing someone else, or myself...like a little girl scared!
I have confidence this will be the best thing that ever happened to us...but still. I'm nervous. I think its normal...but then again I wouldn't know normal if it hit me upside the head.
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