Conversations with my sister

I was talking to one of my sisters yesterday and we ended up talking about religion. I know, I know...everyone is sick and tired of talking about religion and nothing I have to say is new. However, I need it documented in my files so here we go.

My religion is LOVE.

My goal is to love like Jesus loved. He loved everyone. But he got angry like whoa. The church like to sell the forgiveness, turn the other cheek bit. But what I have realized is they only really want you to forgive who they say nad when.

Forgive the gay couple. Heavens no. being gay is unforgiveable.

Forgive the husband who treats you poorly...every.single.time. We are called ot love and turnt he other cheek. You.took.a.vow.

Forgive terrorists? No...they don't deserve love...they are heathens.

Forgive the child molestors....yes. They have repented.

Forgive the man who walked out on his family. Yes, because not forgiving him only hurts you.

Fogive the wife who left to save her soul...no, Being selfish and not trusting in God's plan, submitting to his will for your life is a sinful.


Really?!

I am not perfect. I have a shizzton of mess-ups and missteps. But I also have faith. Not that God will clean up my messes. But that he knows my heart and my intentions. That he has an abundance of grace that he willing extends to me tiem adn time again. He knows I am imperfect. He knows I will be incapable of living a perfect life. He knows this. And he still wants me with him, to love him, ot draw near to him, he wants to be my everything and so time after time he offers me love. Unconditional, Unreasonaable, Unfathomable. LOVE.

And all I want to do is try to follow his example and love those who think they are unlovable. To share wiht them how good it is to allow your self to be loved.

* i want to add...i do not screw up on purpose because I know god will love me anyway. But I do not live a false life with the pretense that being a christian makes me a better human being or my life perfection.

Being a christian is messy and if your hands aren't dirty then maybe you aren't loving like Jesus did.