2017

With the start of each New Year…I make a list of ways to be better, more, enough.

This year I set my sights on a different prize and will make intentional steps towards embracing the idea that I am already exactly who I need to be.

No change needed.

These steps may at time resemble “resolutions”, but resolutions get overlooked, ignored and forgotten. I will love myself enough not to move to the backburner.

I will invest in myself daily…whether it be reading, writing, walking, eating or sleeping. I will mark this down at the end of the day to keep myself accountable. I will log at least 30 minutes of time for myself every.single.day. Because I deserve it.

I will make more of an effort to be present with my family. I will give them the best of me. In the past I have given my best to my idols, in search of the approval of man. It has come to my realization that my tithe is giving the best of myself to the family God bestowed upon me. This may look like making more of an effort to eat healthier, budget better, parent differently. These are all parts of loving intentionally and giving the best that I have to give to the ones who deserve it.

I will say no. At times I will say yes to things I’d rather not…because it will grow me. And in turn I will say no to things I want to say yes to, because it will not feed my soul. I will not feel incomplete or unworthy in doing so.

I am excited to see where this path leads. At times it may get tiring and lonely…but in those moments I will look up instead of down and be the beauty that is in the mess.