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I'd like to take a moment to thank each of you that have joined me here and allowed me this space to express myself. I know there are a few of you who disagree and I want to say that I am incredibly proud of us. It took a great deal of courage for me to post my personal feelings, and this week I have sat...nervously. I imagine it took a great deal of self-control and respect for someone of you, but no one chewed me out. THANK YOU!!!

This is such a sensitive topic and one that deserves every ounce of attention and positive energy we can muster. We each have our personal feelings and passionate response to what is going on in the world today, and that is OKAY. We are individual people who are allowed to set personal boundaries in order to conserve our energy so that we CAN make this world a better place. I trust that is what we are all doing, the best way we know how.

I have been spending a chunk of this week searching my own heart. I am trying to figure out the whole "peace" issue. How do you keep the peace when your opinions and boundaries cause conflict in close personal relationships?  I am trying to figure this out not only for myself but for my daughters. I see them struggling in their relationships and I want to guide them...but how?

As I reflect, certain interactions come up and I find myself forming rebuttals. Melania is like the Proverbs 31 woman, you say.  I don't personally see how a woman who has posed naked for the entire world not only to see, but to own is definitive of a proverbs 31 wife...but I can appreciate that God forgives and wipes the slate clean. Now, on that same note, lets compare and contrast Hillary to Abigail then shall we? From a biblical standpoint, Hillary honored her marriage vows while Trump has done nothing but treat his wives...well, not so much a Christ loved the church but more like chess pawns. Y'all Can we please stop making Donald Trump this upstanding moral, Christ sent savior of the US? Hillary is also a child of Christ, created in his image and he loves her enough to die for her-yes?! Enough already.

Can we place just admit that the people who voted from him were voting because he is a salesman marketing himself to the highest bidders. Which brings up another Bible story, Hmm...like the one where Jesus trashed the temple when they used it as a market place?! How many of your churches are simply marketplaces, selling memberships to the cool kids clubs?!

I am about to make some points that are going to make me really unpopular...but I have to. Let me first, for the record state,,, I detest the idea of abortion. I loathe the idea of a child being unwanted, viewed as an inconvenience or mistake and the thought s a child being thrown in the actual medical waste bin make me violently ill. I think the physical act IS murder. However, sin is in is sin. And if you can read The Shack and find peace from a story of a child's molestation and murder, as an allowable act of God but preach from your higher than thou, pro-life horse about how unforgivable abortion is... just.stop.

I agree that life begins as conception...however, the act of being born is painful. To the point of death. So while many like to argue that abortion hurts the babies in utero...I have to bring up the point that many of our nerve connections are not actually connected in the brain until months after birth. If they were connected and babies could feel these things-they would die going through the birth canal. Their bones are specifically not fused so that their tiny bodies can be crushed. And if being born didn't kill them they would die from shock after birth. I say this because the "facts" Christians like to spew are often wrong and only used to manipulate. I want my records to show for my daughters...truths they can use to make logical decisions. I support the right to choose...because sometimes unspeakable things happen and I do not believe that a young girl should pay that price if she knows she is not able. I trust that God instilled in each female and upon conception, equips her with the intuition and right to make decisions in the best interest of herself and child. And that if this means sparing them from a life of pain and suffering...I would hope that I could be Christ to her in that moment, hold her hand and let her cry as she makes the hardest decision of her life.

I believe that only GOD creates life and only God allows life to end. Therefore if we truly believe He is all knowing and all powerful being...then we must also respect that He creates ALL life, has a plan for each, and sometimes this involves abortion. And every time He promises to use it for GOOD. So please, stop spreading fear and hate in the form of misinformation in "His" name.

 we are instructed to love, and there is no fear in love so we need to speak love and truth with intention. And I feel like alot of the intention right now is so focused on correcting "bad" behavior that we are forgetting the bigger picture. And now we have come full circle to parenting and I am off to reflect a bit more.