I saw a post today that asked how we as parents could encourage our children to reach for the stars if we ourselves are living life scared or complacent.
This led me to ask, what is the difference between contentment and complacency? What about fear versus sense and stability.
I want my children to be happy, but am I modeling happiness? How will my children ever grow to be more if they see adulthood as a mess of constant stress, discontent and defeat.
If I want more for them, I must BE more.
I want to make a difference. For awhile I was confident I was doing exactly this by raising children. But now I feel defeat and failure everyday because I am stagnant. My little friends and I have outgrown our pot and its time we each went on to our own gardens.
This is NOT failure or defeat...this is growth. My job comes with an expiration date, I know this. Teachers get less than one year. I am blessed to have had multiple years with these babies and their momma's.
This group of little men has taught me SO much and grown my heart exponentially. I am honored to have been a part of their foundation and can not wait to see how they change this world.
Whats next? I have not a clue. I cannot fathom what could be better...but it has become abundantly clear that God has his hand out asking me to trust Him and I am going to do my best, through the tears to take that step and trust that he will catch and carry me.
This blog is not everyones cup of tea...but its still here, and I am finding that there are actually people interested in my blabbering and feel I have much to offer.
Who knows, if all this is to reach, encourage or inspire one person...It would be enough. I think for a bit, if nothing other than to stretch my mind, I will come here and post a few of the random thoughts and see where they lead.
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